Ive posted here before and I just figured Id say one last goodbye to the only people who have ever tried to help me in my life, but in the end i Know nobody cares about me. Today has been the worst day of my life which, for me, has to be one god awful day. So after careful consideration I have finally decided that I am going to kill myself. I am pretty sure I have depresion and its obvious to everybody and sometimes they ask, but my parents dont want to deal with the embarrasmeant of having a "crazy son" so they dont take me so when I lie and say "no" they think I am an a******. I have no freinds at all. There is one thing in my life I truly like and my parents take it away like its nothing. So therefore I literally do nothing. I suck at school so I dont have good grades at all. I have dislexia and ocd so I think that explains that. All me and my parents do is argue about everything and its not about serious issues like I was caught drinking so we are arguing about that. Its stupid stuff about why I said I wanted to wear my sweater, after they said no. And I get yelled at for an hour before school about that (yea, with all this physcological stress I do bad in school) and when i tell them about It they get mad and say, like everything else, it is my own fault. I really am mad im killing myself and not have the joyof watching them die. That may sound horrible but I have long intricate thouhts of killing them. And dreams where I kill them are usually the only good dreams I have And speaking of dream, I cant rememmber the time I didnt have a dream where someone didnt die. All that isnt even half of my problems. I would say that is only about 1/10th of my problems. So after careful consideration, I have decided I am going to kill myself tonight, So I am going to check back here later on and I hope something will be here that will make me change my mind.