I'm not one to cry out for help, I don't and i'm not. I just wanna sincerely tell everyone here for whatever reason you are here, i'm truly sorry. I hope you find the answer to your problems and can one day be actually happy. I personally never wanted to be alive, just didn't wanna die.. but now i'm not sure why i'm so scared of simply the pain of dying when being alive is obviously much worse. Feeling daring right now, who knows.. maybe tommorow I won't have to bare the pain of waking up. To everyone here at SF reading this, good luck! I hope one day you guys can be truly happy, I know you deserve to be. Goodbye.