This is going to be my last post here. I would like an honest opinion on why I shouldn’t kill myself. Basically, I have no reason for getting up in the morning other than to study/work… because I have to. I don’t have any friends, so if I died no one would really notice, aside from my parents (not that I care about them). Heck, nobody even knows my name. I’m also really ugly, so I guess that explains the years of social rejection. This is the way it’s always been for me. God knows I’m never going to get laid.
I hate school. My GPA is sh*t even though I try my best in a major I hate. And what's it all going to lead to? Drudging away in a cubicle for the next 50 years, all day everyday. I can't see myself living like that, but that’s where I’m headed. I don’t think I can do it; the thought is way too depressing, living just to survive. It’s all so futile.
So I’m asking you, why should I just not just expedite the inevitable? Why keep living if I’m always in pain? As far back as I can remember, I’ve never been happy, so why should I expect things to change? People who’ve had far better lives than myself have killed themselves, people that are everything I am not: good looking, popular, talented, rich. Why shouldn’t I?
I hate school. My GPA is sh*t even though I try my best in a major I hate. And what's it all going to lead to? Drudging away in a cubicle for the next 50 years, all day everyday. I can't see myself living like that, but that’s where I’m headed. I don’t think I can do it; the thought is way too depressing, living just to survive. It’s all so futile.
So I’m asking you, why should I just not just expedite the inevitable? Why keep living if I’m always in pain? As far back as I can remember, I’ve never been happy, so why should I expect things to change? People who’ve had far better lives than myself have killed themselves, people that are everything I am not: good looking, popular, talented, rich. Why shouldn’t I?
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