Im afraid i have reached my last resort, i have always had problems coping but yesteday i went too far. i have caused quite a few problems in my life due to alcohol but last night i just went overboard. firstly i refused to open any presents or spend time with the family so i was in my mums house all alone when i started drinking, heavily! by the time my mum and step dad came back, i had completely lost the plot and tried to stab him. This then lead to me being arrested on christmas day, i have not long been out of the police station. my mum cant cope anymore with my depression and is unable to speak to me, now my uncle is kicking me out in two days even though i have nowhere else to live. I have no money or job. I can stay with mates for a while but i dont see the point, i dont think im gonna bounce back from this one, im done for. I wont be able to get access to a computer soon, so if anyone has any suggestions that doesnt involve the usual positive thinking bullshit then you have my undevided attention, but you will have to reply by the end of monday. I dont think i will benifit from any help now though. Im just thankful that im not scared to die. I had so much potential aswell, its such a shame its going to go to waste, but thats life i suppose.