My last thread got deleted, this website sucks!

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by nembutal666, Apr 6, 2012.

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  1. nembutal666

    nembutal666 New Member

    So many days I can't stop myself
    From fighting this monster that eats me alive
    So many times I've fought and I've tried
    To live for a moment without fearing my mind
    I hate this, yet live this, and it's bringing me down
    I feel like I'm standing on uneven ground
    The balance to life has been skewered so violent
    I'm so sick of this death-instinct silence

    So despondent and so somber, so frail
    So scared to begin for the fear I will fail
    I'm alone in this pattern and I can't call for grace
    I'm left in this mess that is such a disgrace
    I fear for my mind more than I fear for life
    The one thing worth saving is the love I deny
    For I feel so hollow, and I yearn to relent
    The control for some peace and freedom from this torment

    There's no one to save me and I can't save myself
    I would give my whole being for some kind of help
    But no one can stop this god damn monster so great
    All hope is now lost and it's too late
    I numb to forget, to quiet the noise
    I'm deafened by silence, I can't live with myself
    I numb to forgive, for myself can't forget
    That I could've been someone without any regret

    You lying man who tells a tale
    Of flawless love and peace of mind,
    Of parting seas and curing blind
    Your lies my faith, there's no remorse
    You spin your tale with brutal force
    Your lies, my faith, my breathing grace
    I ran from life, I erased my faith
    I am so blind
    And seeing eyes are not the kind
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN

    Here if you feel like talking.
  3. pppqp

    pppqp Well-Known Member

    hey there nembutal666. edited or deleted i'm not sure. but there are rules here which many new members aren't aware of. i guess they are there to protect most of us who are already vulnerable emotionally and SF is a pro-life site.

    you can talk to me. i'm all ears for you :hugs:
  4. Butterfly

    Butterfly Sim Addict Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    I understand that you are in a lot of pain right now but we have rules here so that may be why the thread was deleted. Can you tell us what's going on? Talking about it may help. Here if you need to talk :hug:
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