Well first off my name is jordan and i just need to i guess let it flow out. lately i havent been at my best at all ive been feeling like shit for the last year or so financialy im ready and its just emotionaly im not ready for anything my ex well now ex left me and i just wish i had something to i guess yeah. i lost some of my family members recently and its just hard to let stuff go and i just tonight i tryed not to think about suicide and yeah its not working i wish i could just die and i hate myself and i just im so confused and yeah. im sorry if i wasted your time. i just needed somewhere to let it all out.