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My life can't go on much longer...

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My life is officially a living hell....There's nothing left in my life that's positive...I just need to go where I belong, and that's Hell...I mean my life is living hell, so I'll fit in just fine in the underground hell.....
 
#5
I'm just not allowed to live any more...I'm getting signals, and I've been getting them for years now but I've misinterprited them, but I got the meaning of these signals 100% clean now....I'm just waiting for the signal of what to do and when to do it.....
 
#7
no no no....i've been diconnected from all of my family members for at least 5 years now..we still interact with each other, but I gave up trying to communicate with any of them about my issues at least 5 years ago as well.....And I've delt with professionals since 2007 at least; when I started going in and out of hospitals and group homes...and I'm still "working" with them... I'm just basically putting on an act toeveryone so they'll get off my back bout everything, at least lay off a bit....But once i get this final signal, im acting on it....
 
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no no no....i've been diconnected from all of my family members for at least 5 years now..we still interact with each other, but I gave up trying to communicate with any of them about my issues at least 5 years ago as well.....And I've delt with professionals since 2007 at least; when I started going in and out of hospitals and group homes...and I'm still "working" with them... I'm just basically putting on an act toeveryone so they'll get off my back bout everything, at least lay off a bit....But once i get this final signal, im acting on it....
But why all this?
What has happened?
What is the diagnosis?
I can see you are 17, so only 12 or before when it started?
 
#9
no no no....i've been diconnected from all of my family members for at least 5 years now..we still interact with each other, but I gave up trying to communicate with any of them about my issues at least 5 years ago as well.....And I've delt with professionals since 2007 at least; when I started going in and out of hospitals and group homes...and I'm still "working" with them... I'm just basically putting on an act toeveryone so they'll get off my back bout everything, at least lay off a bit....But once i get this final signal, im acting on it....
Hi and welcome to the forum..

You should tell your doctors the truth so that they can help you better.. Can you ignore the signals.. and what signals are those you are having..? able to get the doctors to give you some meds to stop you from having any negative signals..?

Keep talking to us and stay safe.. Ignore those signals.. :hug:
 
#10
Yea...i was 13 when i started going into my regular crisis mode....but i was 10 when i started my suicidal comments....my diagnosis are mood disorder and ODD...but i swear there's something wrong with my brain that the docs are missing, or ignoring.....i dnt want get into that topic.....but i just need that last signal to come....and i need it to come soon
 
#11
Hi and welcome to the forum..

You should tell your doctors the truth so that they can help you better.. Can you ignore the signals.. and what signals are those you are having..? able to get the doctors to give you some meds to stop you from having any negative signals..?

Keep talking to us and stay safe.. Ignore those signals.. :hug:
i dnt know....im not going to try to talk to any more doctors or people like that because they just piss me off more, and they never understand me, no matter how hard i try.... and there's no point in talking with anyone any way....im worthless, my life is pointless.....nothing more to say...
 
#12
My head is pounding so frigin hard right now...i have a really bad headache...but i can feel that a signal is being prepared..and boy am i ready for it...i just need to go to where i belong...in underground hell!!!
 

icequeen

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hi confused...you sound like an echo of many of us. we have all had docs, therapists, pscyhs that didnt just get us..its not unusual but so damn frustrating and it does make you want to give up. if you are not honest and forthright with your doc or therapist they cant help you (i get told this daily by friends) and i too now recognise this. so be forceful without being agressive and let them know that you feel no one is listening to you and hearing what you say...its hard but even i accept i cant give up until i have exhausted everything...i have told my current therapist that is my last chance...but what i am saying is..you still have a way to go before you can truly say that no one gets you. please please persevere and IF the day comes at least you can let your friends and family know that you tried everything and nothing they could offer would have changed things. you owe them that, otherwise they will live with the pain you feel now and i dont believe you would want that. hold on, no matter how hard...and let peeps here suppport you:cheekkiss
 

icequeen

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ignore it...reach out here...phone local crisis line till it passes..or just keep phoning...i have done that so i know it works...you may not be happy but at least you feel ok enough to go a little further. its a battle..and war is never easy...just keep fighting...and reach out here for support
 
#16
ignore it...reach out here...phone local crisis line till it passes..or just keep phoning...i have done that so i know it works...you may not be happy but at least you feel ok enough to go a little further. its a battle..and war is never easy...just keep fighting...and reach out here for support
y keep fighting when it's pointless? i just need to die...i can't live..and if i call the crisis, or anyone for that matter, they'll all just say, here she goes again, send her to the hospital....and im not going through that again...the next time i try to commit suicide, i won't be trying, ill be succeeding!
 

Petal

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Hi Simone, welcome to the forums. why are you so adamant to kill yourself? you sound intelligent and nice, you have a lot to live for.please seek some help now before its too late, hugs!
 
#19
Speaking as someone who tried to kill himself 3 times I can say "life is worth holding on to".I hear how much pain you are in and my life isn't much better,I barely get out of bed most days.

If you close yourself off from help(ie)doctors and such then you'll get worse.If I stopped taking my medication for a few weeks I'd be dead by now.So I recognize the importance of taking my meds to live any sort of life.

And you might not be able to speak to your family but you could write a letter and explain to them how you are really feeling.I find writing things down helps me express my feelings so much better.

Take care of yourself and just hold on that little bit more.
Everyone here cares about you.:console:
 
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