I've been looking up suicide for fun, cause my friend said it was hilarious. As I continued looking at it and why people are willing to kill themselves I decided I totally fit those reasons. There were many reasons so I was easily within the perameters of self perma ban forever. What really made my life feel like fail was on a night I was walking home from work. These black guys totally beat me, while mugging me. Nothing serious, I was able to stumble home. After that I was so pissed off at myself for being such a pussy. Since then I've been a pussy about everything, I'm even slipping at work. People have been giving me crap, easily, I feel like they might as well have sodomized me. Is this what being a victim of sodomy feels like. Cause it sucks so hard.