Hmmm, where do I start... well several months ago I was on the edge, I won't go into details I told that story before. Suffice to say I got over that hurdle in life. I focused on somethings in life, won a gold medal in swimming, just graduated top of my class in college with the highest possible marks. lots of stuff going ok, i suppose :lol!: But everthing I do in anyway for a relationship ends in dissmal failure, rejection and basically leaves me feeling alone. It pisses me off and even though I can succeed and quite well and other things; this eludes me and makes the rest of it seem paltry and pointless.