Basically a few months ago, I lost my job. I did something very stupid and can only blame myself for it. However, since then trying to find a new job has been getting harder and harder with just 'Sorry, you're not quite good enough for us' replies. To top it off, my 'friends' don't give a flying fart. A majority of them are my ex-coworkers who decided to keep in touch for a while after losing my job and then sort of giving up. Everything was cool initially. A lot of my friends would just come round and see me, we'd have some drinks, some fun etc. But now, they can't be arsed. They will say 'Yeah ok, we'll come round' and then not turn up. No response, can't get hold of them, nothing. This has happened everywhere in my life. It seems that when people don't have to put up with me, they don't bother. I think right now the only thing stopping me from not bothering with life any more is my kids. They make me happy. But I can't be with them all the time. I can't take this much longer. I spend my life alone in my flat playing on my laptop or xbox waiting for the phone to ring, for someone to say they are coming over or something. I just needed to vent. I'm sick of everyone I vent to feeding me bullshit about how they will come over and the forget or make other plans.