my life , how can i continue to go on.. i just dont understand why things always go wrong with me..? Why do things always happen to me..? cancer has not spread any futher nor got any better. its the same.. same pain, same sickness, same cant sleep at night. I am all alone now. except for brother next door. he slipped a disk in his back at work, doc told him he couldnt work for a while or he would be paralized.. his job fired him and hes trying to fight it with no luck,etc. thought things were going to pick up and go good for me for a change but no luck at that. bought a bigger trailor, been making payments on it, took everything i had in storage out of storage and put into the mobile home and last friday night someone went to the home set it on fire and i lost everything. all my trophies i had won at fairs gone burnt up, all my funiture, gone burnt up. all my law school books, my diploma , gone burnt up. it totaled the trailer it was a complete loss. it was arson. yet the stupid police department have done nothing to catch the guy who did it. i know who did it. the guy kept asking me to let him burn the trailer cause it was very old well the trailer might have been old but it was my home. i told the police this and they are doing nothing about it. the neighbor who did this called 911 after it burnt a lot of my home up and said he seen a 4 wheeler in the area , injected himself in there as the only witness , yet he had 2 tires with rims on his property and when i went to check the mobile to see if anything could be salvaged i seen those tires and rims under my home. he put them there set the home on fire so the fire would reach the tires, make the trailer burn hot and completly destroy it.. he even told the fire department there was nothing of value in it and to let it burn.. then the fire department tells the police nothing of value was in the home.. maybe thats why the police are not going to get him. its not fair.. my life is not fair.. everytime i try to get ahead i cant because someone or something pushes me back down. i am so sick of it.. i have heard several times from several people who will say no one goes through hardships all the time. well i say you want to bet? i cant.. i just cant do this anymore... i am going to do something in a few days that i probably should not be doing but im sick of life.. my life has been heartache after heartache , pain after pain and i am giving up.. cant do this anymore and not going to try. no ones been through all i have been through, no one goes through as much as i go through. it never ends unless i end it.