Ok so my name is Martin from Estonia and I'm stuck in my own mind i guess. I no longer have a social life (almost) and keep making excuses meeting people or going places. Ive been thinking about sui for maybe 5 years or so. Actually my life isn't so terrible I'm just stuck in one place and don't move forward in my life. Ive kind of tried to kill myself sort of but every time theres something in the way, like someones telling me not to do it. First time i was drinking alone and had some sleeping pills and the thought popped in my head hey why not, so i decided to do it <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. At that time i couldn't find my garage keys and fell asleep in some time. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> and woke up in the morning like nothing happened (damn). Last time was the worst i think, <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> Failure again. Now i have no car. The next day i tried to remember where i crashed the car but had really hard time remembering. All i remember was a slight bump in the trees but when i saw the car it was pretty f.... up. So right now i have no car, no job and no nothing and i know theres gonna come some kind of The right timing when I'm drunk again and pull some stupid stunt. Until then you could share some ideas or similarities of your own life. By the way i registered today here.