My family and I have been through some very rough times in recent years, from being homeless, to losing almost everything. We lost our home in 2003 and have never recovered. Then my husband lost his job of 15 years and we started on a downward spiral. Each time we try to get on our feet, something seems to happen. My husband went into construction work, but the pay is sporadic. I've been training horses and teaching horseback riding lessons for a living since the 1980's. When the economy is good, my business does well. In this economy, we struggle. A lot. Last year, almost a year ago, we were living with friends and an opportunity was given to us to run a large horse facility in an adjacent town. Financially we knew it would be very difficult, but we worked hard to make it happen. We came from nothing and were struggling. In this business, there are a lot of rumor mongers, haters and everyone tries to ruin everyone else's reputation. Very cutthroat. Yesterday I found out that a tenant on the property had been conspiring against me for months. My customers have recently been told volumes of lies about me. Then we were told we are losing the ranch. Because of lies and deception. I know this sounds like conspiracy theory stuff...but it's all fact, and it's my life. Such as it is. We don't know what to do. Where to go. I've got clients that count on me, but I cannot function. I feel sick to my stomach, I have raging headaches where it feels like I'm going to explode. We've got nowhere to go. We will be homeless again soon. Homeless with three cats and eight horses that I won't be able to afford when we have to leave this place. I can't stop crying. I just want the pain to end. I want to not be a burden on my husband and my daughter anymore. I just want to die.