Ok so i just wanted one last try at trying to get help. Here is my problem, why should I suffer, when all, and literally ALL my problems will be solved instantly. I suck at school, Im pretty young and im lookin at colleges and i know i cant go to any college cuase im maintaing a 1.6 gpa. There is only ONE thing that i like and my parents take it away from me all the time. I feel really weird, i feel like i have some problem cuase im always uptight and worried about what people think of me, worried about irrational things (ex. if i wanna go somewhere one the weekend, im worried the person who will take me will die, the place will burn down or be destroyed). If i touch something and it doesnt feel right, i have to go back and touch it again until i get it right. I have no freinds, I get mad, and i mean RAGING mad in an instant. My parents yell at me all the time and one of them is just plain weird and embarrasing. I have chronic pain in my knees where sometimes i can barly stand yet alone walk or run. sometimes it gets so bad i can barly stand it so i usuallly lay down and its hurts so bad i cant do any work so i have lots of missing work and get told im lazyI have no freinds and have nothing going for me. I dont want to be this way, ive tried changing. Ive also tried talking to my parents which resulted in "stop being crazy" or when i talk about suicide in an attempt to try and get help i was told to "do it" so i finally am.