Im so bored with my life. Its funny because I use to never get bored at all. Im on a very low and limited budget. Im sick of pushing the cart thru the stores in the same pattern buying the same items every time only stepping out of routin to occasionally buy a $1 pack of pens or pad of paper. Im sick of only leaving the house to buy groceries, buy pet food, or attend a doctors appointment with my son. Im sick of never having money to eat out in a decent place or buy new shoes... I just cant seem to be content with my shitty life... Im not happy cleaning, cooking, washing laundery, watching tv, and routinly pushing a cart thru a store twice in a whole freaking month......... If anyone else here deals with no money and no way to get more money and can manage a content feeling with life please tell me how you do it. ---------- I try I do..I like a clean house but my house is old, its falling apart at its seems, its drafty, and its impossible to keep clean. So I fall into a 'why bother' attitude. I could clean it to spotless and turn around twice and then it would be filthy again...I cant enjoy clean if everyone messes it back up... ----- I write to penpals (its my hobby...my great passion..my link to the outside world..the only thing I look forward to on a regular basis)..I can never buy enough stamps and I feel guilty when I do buy stamps if Im straight honest about it.. I even compramize and buy paper, pens, and stickers from the dollar stores.. -------- I love to read but feel guilty for a book or a magazine purchase.. I freebie my days away (ordering free samples online)... ---- I buy cheap groceries and feel guilty for buying something that costs more then $4 in the grocery store.. I end up canceling home service food orders and not placing discount food orders thru this local group because Im scared to death we wont be able to pick them up for some reason. ------ Im home most all of the time and feel guilty for having expencive tv service..We have cell phones for when we are out because we travel long distances for doctors and I feel like shit bc they are expencive.. ----- I try to do things to make life comfortable and make myself content but its hard...I just cant seem to be happy with what I have. My husband says I could have the world at my feet and Id still be unhappy..Maybe hes right.