I really just can't take it anymore... I have never felt as suicidal as today... I have this strong feeling that I just want to end it all. My life is really miserable. I just turned 17. My parents are awful with me. All they do is stress me out, yell at me, threaten me and saying things like they will send me to an orphanage. They do this all the time and I just can't take it anymore. They almost made me break up with my best friend who is like a brother to me. I do have a lot to live for. I have a well paid job, I play a sport... My academic grades have dropped somewhat due to the huge amount of stress. I used to be a straight A student. I suppose I'm smart and I have proven that but that doesn't matter to my parents. I despise them. My performance in the sport I play has also dropped due to the huge amount of stress. I started cutting myself recently. I told my parents that I hurt myself on some sort of fence outside and earlier I had heart them guess I may be cutting myself. They don't care of course. Right now I just don't feel like going on... I want to go to a sport competition in another city but my parents are making it a problem. I really need these 2 days off from them... Today I almost got into a fight at school from all the stress. I also started drinking and smoking even though I have asthma and a sick liver. Guess I don't value my life anymore... What can I do?