I'm a failure as a person. I failed myself, my family and life. I feel so depressed that it's unexplainable. I have nobody to talk to anymore so i'm alone in my thoughts. I'm worried about letting people know my true intentions for fear of being sent to a mental hospital. I see no hope, no future and feel like everything is going to get worse, not better. I think that I just wasn't meant to be born. I can't experience joy anymore, I can't feel, all my emotions have disappeared. I feel weak mentally and i'm not sure how much longer I can survive for. I just want to sleep forever and if that means that I have to seriously harm myself, then so be it. I don't even know why i'm writing this, I guess I just need to vent. I'm alone in my thoughts, i'm trapped inside my own head. I think i'm already dead in the sense that my personality has vanished. I'm merely a shadow of my former self. I don't know if this is depression, but it's beyond despair. I doubt i'll be alive for much longer.