Here are 17 reasons why my life is not worth living: I don't have a passion. It's a disgrace that I have to study something just because I don't have any other options. I can't relive my wrestling career because there's nothing I can do that I love as intensely and do as intensely. My social skills are nonexistent. First of all, I find that most people don't want to talk to me because I'm nervous. Why would someone want to talk to someone else who is nervous because of them? The most frustrating part is I know exactly how bad my social skills are, but there's nothing I can do about it. Social situations are more like a chore to me when they should be something fun. I can't even practice correctly because I don't have very many opportunities and even if I do get social practice, it's pointless because I never think of anything to say. My brain freezes and my mind is blank. How am I supposed to hold a conversation if I can't even muster up words to say? Conversations are boring and repetitive. I have nothing to talk about because there's nothing I'm proud of. All my conversations are extremely brief and they are all the same. I'm not even present in a group of 3 or more because I can't keep up with the conversation. I don't have a social life. I don't have any friends I'm proud to call friends. I feel embarrassed with the people I'm surrounded with. I can't be friends with anyone normal. Whenever I try to make normal friends, I either follow people and act third wheel or deliberately get excluded. I can't even spend a lot of time with my loser friends. Even if I do find a shared activity with somebody, how am I supposed to actually get to know someone if there's no conversation? Also I usually get rejected probably because of my ineptitude and nervousness. Furthermore, I don't have any kind of physical relationship and even worse, I have no friends of the opposite sex. I know exactly how to make friends and spark attraction, but I can't do it. I have no real interests. I don't like anything at all and thus have no fun and nothing to talk about with other people. I just sit around and waste all my time. I never get public recognition. I would love to be famous and know that it's a far reach, but still I don't get the kind of respect I deserve from the people I know. I don't know how to problem solve. I'm inept at fixing basic things and always need help with the most basic tasks. I never got into a social frat. I could've fixed all my social problems but like I said, I don't get the respect I deserve from other people. I'm not good at anything at all and thus have no success with anything. I can't lose weight nor exercise efficiently. I keep getting shin splints whenever I run or walk. I can swim but I hate swimming. I'm also overweight because of the weight gaining medicine I take. If I try to lay off the food, I'm always hungry and that feels horrible. I have low status. I can't convey higher status without coming across as an arrogant prick. I have to be polite, modest, humble, and meek just to appear socially acceptable. I'm also shorter than almost everyone which makes me feel inferior. I come across as a boy and no one takes me seriously because of how young I look. I can't get out of bed and stay in bed until a crazy hour. I can't handle drugs and alcohol. They can be a fun social thing but I act too weird with it because of my messed up brain. I can't play contact sports which I love because of my messed up brain. I already alienated all my potential friends at school because of last semester. What's the point of living that life? I'm sick and tired of living through this and can't stand many more years of this kind of life. My doctor can change my medicines all he wants but I still feel the same as I did before taking the medicine. There's no point in the medicine and all it does is make me fat. I don't see how I can fix this. Any ideas?