Hello to everyone. I am french, so all my apollogies if I make some grammar mistakes... I didn't find a forum about suicide in french, not a good one, this one seems friendly; Here is my problem, it can be really funny from an outside point of view, but it really fuck my life: 2years ago, with no reason, my feet started to smell bad while I was wearing shoes (all kind of shoes, I tried a lot of different pairs). When I say it smells bad, I mean really bad, 3 meters around me while I wear my shoes. (of course in two years I tried a lot of medecine, saw a lot of skin doctors, even had botox injections in feet, and my hygiene is very good). It kills my social life, when I take the train, everyone is annoyed by the odor, when I'm at my lessons at uni, its the same. Every social situation is unbearable.... And as if my life was not fucked enough, I have been told in march of this year, by doctors, that I have a neurogical disease that affect my movements. They think there might be a link with my feet problem but they don't know how to take it off I am avoiding every single social situation outside of my home, I can"t study seriously, I can't work, I can't see friends, it allways end up as a social humiliation. ALLWAYS. Then I come back home, cry and try to sleep in order to forget about my life. I'm not brave enough to kill myself, im too scared to miss the action. But if I only had to push a button to put an end to everything, I would have done so several times. I mean it. I just can't cope with this life it's too much. I've seen a shrink but he gaves me stupid medication that make me feel worse.