I had a happy childhood, loving family, good friends. Married a beautiful girl when I was 20 and we had a daughter called Rachel Emily. One night I found my wife with another man and my happy wholesome little world fell apart. I drank heavily took all kinds of drugs, stole, used women and became someone I dont like. Then I was in a car crash, broke my neck. The guy who crashed the car had nearly killed himself and his girlfriend months before, I didnt know this. He wanted to kill us both and we should be dead. He was a friend? Nothing goes right for me I havent got the will to tell you all my pain that was the beginning of it all. I cant go anywhere I just think of death. Life hurts. Dont know if I'll find any answers, dont know if I care.