I want this to be an interactive blog so its posted here rather then in the let it out section. For those of you who know me I am still a youngish guy. Just trying to find some happiness in this world. I am going well with my studies and have meet loads of really cool and positive people, I have meet a few girls that are really fantastic too. I feel though that I can't live up to their expectations and be more then a friend. I still feel like a failure, like the guy who made friends with an ass in High school and that 'friend' spreed horrible rumors up about him and tried to pass on his horrible nicknames to him....I still feel like its something to be ashamed off. when I look back I really wish hs could of been a positive experience and it could of easily of been I hate how these days they force people that don't want to be there to stay in school longer, they just make everyone that wants to study's lives hell. I hate those assholes and their horrible behavior towards me, I always treated others with respect and I still do. I dont know I just really wish that crap wasn't in my past. I still feel like I have to hide from it and I'm not good enough for the girls that seem to really like me and I want to date. As I said I'd never harm another person but part of me wants to get those little shites and ound their faces in and pick on them and see how they like it. I never cried and I held strong and never let it put me off getting an education but I bet they would of ran home to their mommies and balled their eyes out.