i just need to say this stuff. i hate my life, have for the past few months. the girl i love treats me like shit and has done for months and im just coming to the realisation that she hates me. i cant talk to my family because i dont want to hurt them so i have to hide my true feeling. i have no friends that care i go to university and spend the whole day on my own in silence. i dont have a social life whatsoever, i just spend my time in my room, alone. ive recently started to self harm, to try and feel something else other than the horrible emotional pain and now i cant seem to stop doing it. im close to death, i can feel it. i dont have a reason to go on living my pathetic excuse for a life. i need help, but i dont think i will get it in time.