I lost a gf on mine... We lasted about a month then she killed herself... She was 17!!! and Now shes dead So please dont let this be you. She was rapped by her dad's friend when she was 9. and because of that she went to go live with her grama. And thats when I met her. TO me she was everything and I loved her so much. She even asked me to marry her. and I said yes..... We were happy and she was my true love... I never wanted anything like I wanted her. I'd protec her to. SHe was my life... But then she moved away... We lost contact. About a year later Her grama comes up to me and says Jessicas dead she killed herself. Jessica Jessica shadows is her name... And I'll never forget it... She is still my true love and even if I do find a new gf I will never forget her....... When we first met All i wanted to do was help her cuz I could tell she was depressed... So i talked to her everyday that I could. SHe made me happy and I made her happy.. She was my angel. she had 8 piecering.. But I didnt care. and she had green sexy eyes and red and black hair.. Yeah i loved the hair and the eyes and her HOT face.. Yeah I will admit I am sad that shes gone. But I move on..... There wont ever be another Jess shadows but I wont forget her. Even when I'm married to someone else. If anything like this had happened to you please dont die or hurt yourself over someone else. Its ok to never forget. But just move on. And I know its hard but please do move on.. Stuff like this takes time. You move on when you are ready or when you feel safe with someone else. Just keep on liveing.