dont know why but today i felt particularly on edge and anxious. i went in college and even though its a small class and im perfectly comfortable with everyone i felt like everyone was pretending to like me and is secretly judging me. when i was asked to be in a photograph [i do photography] i totally freaked out and was like ''NO NO!! I CANT'' and i went bright red and really sweaty. i dont even know why... i got given a small job to do and it was nothing. but afterwards i felt so damn nervous and anxious that i was sweating loads and had to take deep breaths to calm myself down. then later i was looking around and feeling so paranoid. and if i caught someones eye i was thinking ''they dont like me. i wonder what they really think of me'' then later on this guy on my course started laughin and i got scared and asked what he was laughing at. and then he smiled at me and i was really paranoid and asked why he was smiling at me like that. gosh im not usually like this. why is my mind doing this to me?? why is it against me??