I made a mistake, I spoke about something I should never have this morning during counselling, we talked off revenge and taking our lifes back...when I left I wanted to kill Charlie and then myself both of us in he's flat so I drove there, sat outside he's house and then he drove in. He saw me ands poke to me an d told me i looked nice, I was 10 years old again, he aked me in for tea and I went. when i got scared to leave he wouldn't let me, hje kissed me ahain, touched me and I went to the front door to leave and he put he's hands around my throat and started kissing and touching me. it hall happpned again it sm y own falt. now I can't get rid of him oir he's smelee. I can't. He now knows where i live, he knows my car he knows everything about me. I shouldn't have said wahat i did this mronign now i'mn being punshined.i nca;nt calkm down. i cna't dao it. I hurt all over, I hurt i hurt i hurt.