My mother hit me, way more than once:flowers: Se divorced my father when I was 5. She told me my father did not want to talk to me, that Im not allowed to talk to him and had to forgot him... She is a psyopath... Or have similar symptoms... She really adore herself and ley me down. She told me all the time i was ugly, look like my ulgy father and that I was fat and discutsing I had to do everythin to her. Clean the really big hause, wich was never good enough.. She would yell at me, hit me and worse... One time my knee hurt after a kid kick me there by a accident. We plaid soccer.... And when I told her I was in really in big pain, she kicked me really hard on the spot... I couldn't controll my tears.. I was 13 and in and in a lot of pain... It hurt so bad that I laid on the floor and could not stand up again. My stephfather took me to the hospital and it was clearly a broken leg.i was in for days hand was forced to tell it all was because a soccer game... A accident... But really my mother break my knee... One other time she pushed me down the stairs when I was in 4 grade... I got a lot of brusies and break my arm... She had no regrets and told thats happen when I screw up my work... I judt didn't know how to use vacuum mascin and messed it up... Don't remember everything... But my stepfather had to take me to the hospial with a broken arm and I had to say I fall down the stairs.... She hit me alot and just hated me for everthing.... When I got 19 years old I moved 1600 km away from my family because I was done as a slave, and they hated me... But... I don't feel right... Just hate my self and punish myself with selfharm... I feel like desevre it... And it feels kind of great... My life is just a mess because my mother make me belive im a piece of crap.. And its true... I can't trust anyone... And don't think anyone would care about me... Im lonley.. And it had yo be this way. I don't want this life.... I got a eating disorder.. Bulimia.. But recovered... I selfharm.. Not recovered... Got anxity..not recovered... Im suicidal.. And really feel lost.. My life is just useless... You know... i was borm with beeing a burden.. And feel like I always will be that way?.