so i have been out of hospital 6days. when i left i had the support of my mother, she said she understood and she would support me to help me get better. today, after she had a few glasses of wine, it all changed. shes saying that i am not suicidal that i'm just making it up to get attention and that i am lying about how i really feel. all just to get drama. i feel like she's just egging me on, daring me to actually attempt to take my life. i know she doesnt believe me. and i'm actually starting to truely believe that everyones life would be better without me.