Well she went on google last night and of couse in the search box the first thing that came up was suicide. She brought me into the computer room in case my brother heard. Asked me about it. At first I lied like I always do. But then she said the magic words "you can be honest" so I said I'd joined a forum. She then asked if I felt suicidal and I told her sometimes. Then all she did was give me a hug which I didn't want and I told her this, which made her feel bad as I usually wander around the house until I get a hug from someone. In my defence the only person on the planet who doesnt annoy me right now is one of my brothers. Also about half an hour before this she'd yelled and I do mean yelled, at me for not taking this pen set she bought me upstairs even though she told me to leave them untill i'd tidyed my room. Which is still a mess because I've been throwing things out and I have loads of empty boxes and half of my belongings on the floor. She left the convorstation there and I kind of wish she hadnt. Now today she's taking me to my therapist appointment. Where she'll tell my therapist. Great.