It's been three months ago since I lost my mum.. I still find myself getting shocked by the fact that she went through with it and that she's actually gone. Keep dreaming that she is still alive and that it was all just a mistake.. I know that she is gone, I feel the pain through every bone in my body, I just need it not to be true so bad. I don't know anybody who's been through what I'm going through and I know it's hard for others to relate and understand. I don't know, maybe it helps to talk to someone who's been through it. I appreciate if someone who relates would like to share some thoughts!