I've realized now that I've relapsed. I was here almost two years ago, when I was still in high school, but I had recently come back for support. I have gotten back into a steady routine of SH, but I realized it just doesn't cut it. That was when a friend suggested popping pills. Just over the counter. So I tried, and it made all the pain go away. We'd stick with things like Tylenol and Advil, maybe allergy medications. But we'd take 8 of them at a time. Just enough to make the room spin. It makes me feel bold when I'm scared. It makes me feel better when I'm down. I know its bad, and I know I am already addicted, but it hasn't hurt me yet. Surely it is safer than slitting my skin open?