I have had OCD for a year now and they all revovled around girls. Once i wondered if i was attracted to them or not. Anyways there was this girl i liked im my college class and ofcoarse the thought attacks came. At first my thoughts were something like, how do you know she's real and i argued with this. Then they got worse and they were like if you talk to her the college is going to explode or if you talk to her someones going to do something bad to you and her. And then the worst one was when i obssesed over her dying. Anyways we became friends and i told her how i felt in a letter. She has a bf so i adressed that. She wrote back saying i was childish and she heard about me asking for advice. This hurted cause we are college students and it really wrecked me ego. I don't think it was my fault for caring for her. Because my thoughts made me think of her 24/7 for a whole month. I tried to resist them, everytime i thought of them i felt like i got real sick. My whole head woud numb up and i would get a cold and i felt like i had to save her in my head, if i didn't i would face the conseqeunces of being sick. So i guess i became a bit obssesed with her unintentially. But i don't think it's my fault. I wanted to be with her because i wanted to prove these thoughts wrong. Let them know they can't stop me from having relationships. Now I feel like all my work (thought wise and overcoming them) was for nothing. And these thoughts had hit me every minute of the day for a month. I feel like telling a friend. Everyone thinks im a loser now or thinks im weird. Even my pal. I feel like if i told him maybe he would understand. I know she wouldn't, she would think i was crazy. But atleast I would have a chance. I probably didn't make the best moves but the thoughts were draining my whole attitude i think it affected me entirely, it affected how i thought about her and my perspective and i wish she knew this. I wish everyone knew so she wouldn't call me a loser and everyone wouldn't think i was retarded. But they wouldn't understand, they would just think i was crazy and would treat me like a handicap. This situation really sucks though, anyone got any advice.