Your title is a line from the song The End by The Doors - I like The Doors, but listen to them amongst a lot of other music. Music makes me feel good, when I'm in the mood. Me and my neighbours all have our little understanding about a bit of loud music now and again. Headphones are a neighbours best friend though!
Anyhow Miss Misery, I'm sorry to see you with these issues - mostly its just your depression kicking in but even if you know that its still hard and seem like its just you that is to blame! Depression can be treated though - and I hope that you have taken some steps there. Life can get us all down but when depression gets you down its far far worse than normal 'down-time' or the phases we go through, puberty, teenage years, manhood and womanhood, motherhood, and so on and so forth. There is feeling depressed in a normal way and then depression that is way beyond normal.
Although you are young, this is more than some normal phase and its just 'bad luck' that you have landed the lottery ticket of depression maybe in the womb. On the other hand your depression might have root causes, sometimes abuse does this and children raised in homes with little laughter or cheer. There are all sorts of reasons why you might feel depressed, which is why therapists train to help people connect their emotions to past events or ongoing ones.
You got to talk to someone. You should have already been to your doctor but I'm not sure if you have done this as of yet. Help is there and you should not feel ashamed about it. You should not have to feel this way literally pulling your hair out - mainly because you have no way to let off steam - talk to someone, be taken seriously for feeling depressed.
Not sure if your parents are that bad - its easy for a parent not to spot the clues in even the worse depression. When young I felt awkward around parents with certain problems - maybe you have another relative out there you get along with?
Saying that, maybe therapy or counselling would be better as these people understand from the word go about depression. You will not exhaust them as you might with parents. To be honest, its hard as hell for a parent to have an answer even if you said you felt like killing yourself. Even if they love you I guess its maybe not taught in parenting class.
One other thing, often as not it will parents you fall out when depressed! The closer someone is to you the more cruel you can be in words. Sometimes arguments get out of hand and you will say things you'd not say to a stranger. Thankfully, most people make up fairly soon but you got to be careful as it easy to get into a 'not talking to your sister' mood with a stand off for months on end.
I hope you get the help you deserve Miss Misery and I'm sure that your intelligent enough to maybe pick up your education and run with that as a coping mechanism. Study can give you the chance to learn many useful social skills.
I don't know if your mother and father have praised you enough when growing up - encouraged you and so on. It is sad if they have not but maybe they have problems and maybe its for the best if you concentrate on yourself and get yourself well.
When you feel a bit better in yourself (which you will if you get help) then I'm sure you'll make a few friends and will be good company. You might meet a nice Mr Happiness one day but till then keep studying, try to get along with your parents and don,t think you need to fight this alone!
Good luck, God Bless and All the Best for the future.