I want to throw up until I purge the last, I want to cut until I am bled dry. I want to take something that makes my heart stop, Just fuck the ifs & wheres - I want to die. I want to find peace up on the other side, I want to achieve suicide without fear. I just want there to be another side, I'm sorry Mum, I don't want to be here. But yet I live, and I fucking live in vain. And STILL I live and yet I live in pain. If there is God, he is fucking taunting me. How dare you take a newborn, and yet you leave me?