Since you're all strangers, I figure there's nothing wrong with "crying for help" on these forums. Long as I keep a low profile in real life, which I am. My parents and family in general don't suspect a thing. I've attempted suicide only once when I was 17 and should have died, but I haven't done it since then. I'm one of those people who doesn't like "chickening out," so if I'm going to kill myself, I'm just going to do it and go through with it and hope to hell it works but like the idiot that I am, I didn't use a lethal method <----had to change this...I can't post suicide methods, right? sorry about that. Anyway, the method I used wasn't lethal but the obvious lethal one has always been there. I guess because it jut seems so...I've done it before and while it isn't painful, it's very uncomfortable. I'm always thinking, "wow this is taking too long." I can't acess something else because well, I don't have the means to, so I guess I'll try this method. I'm not really looking for help here as I am looking for anyone else who feels the same way. I know I'm not alone, but sometimes it's good to know I'm not alone. I'm so sweet and nice and never disrespectful to my parents, but they treat me like crap or they just don't listen to me at all. So I'm done.