I guess the title sounds kind of whiny... but... I came to the conclusion today. Truly accepted it. My therapist agreed. I mean, she said they probably love me in their own way, but to an extent I was never loved, and the longer that I wait around for their love, the long I stay longing for it, the longer I suffer. So a true acceptance of the fact that I will not get love from them. Well, the tears will probably come later, now is just the conscious acceptance. But... where does that leave me? I cannot find unconditional love from other people, it's impossible. No one else can be the mother I am searching for. She said to find my spirit mom. Or for those who don't believe, to be your own mom. I heard someone on here once say, grow your own parents inside you, or something to that extent. So I'll be spending some time with my spirit mom, because she loves me unconditionally.