Hello everyone. It's my first time being here and it's also my first time talking to anyone about this. I just really don't know what to do because there's really no one I can talk to about this. My family does not know how to actually help me with the trauma and I'm too ashamed to tell my friends about what happened to me. I feel so alone with this and keeping this all to myself is really taking its toll. My nightmares are getting worse. My relationship with my family is suffering. And I've been seriously contemplating suicide for a while now. I've even planned it all out. I know no one will notice if I were gone. I tried hiding out in my room for a week and no one came to check on me. That alone scared me. That no one really cared or took my depression seriously. I honestly don't know what to do. I want to live but I can't bear it anymore. I don't have a job. I get really nervous and anxious if I go out in public. I'm dependent on my family who have their own problems to deal with and can't deal with mine. I also live in a culture where depression is not considered serious and it can be solved if we put our minds to it. Because of that, I haven't been seen any professionals for this nor have I taken any medication. This is my last hope. I just need someone to talk to. Anyone at all.