I have a cat that has been sick for over a month now. He will not eat or drink on his own, I have been force feeding and watering him and he seemed to be getting better then he crashed. so I took him to the vets again. They gave him inter venous and glucose and he seemed to be happier, even went to his food dish (did not eat, but smelled it) They did some blood work and X-rayed him. said they are not really sure what is wrong, could do more tests. His one kidney seems to be 1.5 x's bigger then his other, but they can survive on one kidney. they are not sure if he has something in his stomach or not (could not really tell) They said I could do more tests and or operate which is way expensive and unfortunately do not have the money for that. I was suppose to have him euthanized on Thursday afternoon but could not do it cause he was up and happy for a change. Then it was suppose to be on Friday morning but could not do it. He has not ate since Thursday and I have not feed him. I was thinking that I would leave him be cause he seemed so happy. but now he is crashing again. He does not look like he is in pain just very weak and tired. I don't know if I should try to feed him again and put him fluids or put him to rest. I was thinking if he does not want to eat on his own he is telling me he wants to die, am I right thinking that? I don't know what to do, should I help him or put him to sleep? Could you please help me think this over. I am so upset and can't sleep I need help PLEASE.