FREAKING CURSE THIS LIFE!!! Like seriously. I don't know if I'm going to get through tonight. Maybe this is more of a crisis, but whatever. I'm still ranting, so, I guess I'll just post it here. I'm a noob and I doubt anyone will read this anyways. Anyways, I seriously cannot stand being alive anymore. I'm sick and tired of doing the motions and pretending everythings okay. I have no friends and my family is messed up, but then again, whose isn't? I mean, what's the point of going through life alone? Even online, I can't manage to make friends. Oh, and another thing, I find it so weird that I can be doing so great and think that my lifes going to change, and then come back to this point where I can't find a single reason to live. To put it simply, I'm just tired of it all; tired of no one caring, tired of no one listening, tired of being such a screw up, tired of well, pretty much all the crap going on in my life right now. Its just too much for me to handle. I guess I'm just weak, maybe I should just accept that I'm alone in this and that NO ONE is ever going to care. Its probably selfish of me to want something like that, I guess. =\ Whatever..