Ok heres the thing i know my rapist is due for parole this july and although i'm kinda prepared for it i am still really scared. I have been doing well until jut lately when something triggered me and now i can't sleep and have nightmares. I don't know what to do and i am finding myself thinking of harming myself or worse. I don't want him to win but i don't think i can go through it all again. I never got the help i asked for so no point asking again as a total waste of time but i don't know what else to do. If anyone has any ideas they would be most welcome.