I couldn't take the pain anymore...I've been slowly going off my medicine Lexapro as they believe it's not helping me. I tried to drown myself in my bath. I don't know if it's even possible really. My therepist told me the natural instinct for human survival is strong and would kick in if I had gone too far under. I felt pain and hopelessness and I wanted to get drunk beforehand but couldn't drink. This guy, I met on MySpace and have known for four years has been a love interest to me. Some people may think that's crazy, but I feel a connection to him. But he recently told me him and his ex had a long talk and that they realized they missed each other more than they thought. That's when I wanted to end my life. I felt I couldn't get him to even give me a chance after four years...it makes me feel something's wrong with me and then I didn't want to live no more. I don't know what to do or what to say. I haven't told my Mom, I don't want to bring her down...it would break her heart and her birthday is tomorrow. I have to keep it to myself, for now. I told the guy I spoke about, my sister, and my therepist. I feel really alone right now with no one to talk to or reach out to though...the days are long and very lonely for me anymore.