So, maybe a small amount of you know my situation with my friend. I haven't been here for awhile, though. I'm going to repost it anyways. I'm in love with a girl. I have been for a year and a half. The same girl. Our relationship is a little different. She's dated 3 other guys, currently dating the third. We have a different relationship. She describes us as "Soul Mates". Says things like "We'll know eachother forever" and "We'll always be in eachothers lives". The problem is, she always in a relationship with someone else and they all fucking hurt her in the end but she's reluctant to date me. Although she has said she is attracted to me "She doesn't want to lose me". At the same time, I really don't even know what she's trying to tell me. And even when things are great between us, she always blows me off for her boyfriend. She's always busy with him. I mean, I know I'm only a friend, but if we're soul mates surely she can spend some time with me too? I wrote her a letter in October explaining what I thought about our relationship, about us. She wrote a letter back, but she ripped it up because "She thought I was dead" because I was back in the hospital's psyciatric ward. Things got really great between us after I got out, but then they degenerated in a non-spoken kind of way. Now she doesn't even say "I love you" (Which she has, the past year. We've been in love, but not "In that way") And now she's in Montreal for the christmas vacation. We always planned to talk about things during the break but it's like she's completely blown it off. She hasn't responded to any of my text messages lately. It feels completely like she doesn't even care about us anymore. I've been told to move on by many friends. But I we're soul mates. And that's the nature of our relationship. I love her, and I want to be there for her. But there's always a point where we get close, but she's always dating someone else. It's been a fucking year and a half. I've been waiting for a god damned long fucking time. How am I supposed to deal with this? How am I supposed to approach her? How can I move on? (Not from being soul mates, that's going to stay. But from me being attracted to her). The whole situation makes me feel completely numb.