So here’s my situation. I’m in love with a girl. (Don’t challenge the authenticity. Check all my other threads regarding this issue. I’m pretty sure this isn’t passing infatuation) We’re in love with each other… But not in that way, per se. We’re not boyfriend girlfriend. Best friends, soul mates, perhaps. Maybe you don’t see how that can work, but I do. Either way. For an entire year I’ve felt like this, and I’ve had to watch her date two other guys, both of which turned out to be assholes and said terrible things to her. So I tried to be there as much as possible and comfort her. Now she’s dating a third guy. We’ve talked about our relationship before. But she told me things like “I’m not ready for a serious relationship… I don’t want to lose you”. It seems ridiculous, seeing as we’ve had breakdowns before, but seemingly our relationship has always survived, and she’s in a relationship right now. It hurts. But what also hurts that lately she’s just been treating me like second best… Haha. I’m so stupid. If you’re dating someone, why wouldn’t you? But little things get to me. Things like how I want to talk to her at the end of the day before she goes home, but she says she has to go to the art room. Which is fine, but of course I walk into the cafeteria, and you can see her talking with her boyfriend. Understandable. Still hurts. And little things like, when I leave on msn she doesn’t say “I love you” when she’s with her boyfriend, but when he’s gone, she does. At one point, she said she was breaking up with her boyfriend, and I know it had something to do with our relationship. But they got back together. And all of this just hurts. I’ve been the one that she’s lasted, but she’s done little things like this like lying. Raising my hopes, and then lowering them. And now I have to watch her love someone else more than me, when all I want to do is love her. But I know I’ll only be second best. So how do I do it? How do I fake happiness? How can I act always so great around her? She only really wants to be with her boyfriend. And we’re only the best friends. How do I go on like this? I know. I know I want her to be happy with anyone, even if it’s not me. But I always seem to watch her get hurt and lied to by people. She was at one point interested in me… She said so herself… Maybe the feeling is gone. Maybe she lied. So I really only need one answer. How do I fake being happy around her?