To somehow obtain the strength and courage to end my life and my suffering. Im a coward. Along with being severely depressed I have debilitating anxiety and panic attacks. Which almost makes it impossible for me to commit suicide. Every time ive tried ive folded. I fear my consciousness will end up somewhere worse. If I could I would. I wouldn't be on forums writing about it. The worse part of all of this is the feeling of just being trapped. Until I die, theres no way out.