I tried again last night I thought I would go but I didn't I came through it and I am getting help I just want to say that it hurt so much and the two things I will never forget are the sound of my sister crying on the phone when I told her, her words of kindness her understanding the love she offerd me and the pain in her voice I can never do that to her again I can never hurt someone I love like that again and the second is how I feel knowing my partner who I lost to suicide would hate me she wants me to live to make her proud so this I vow I will never try again I will try to stop anyone with out taking there choice away from them and I will do something with my life to make her proud I am going to get my stories published maybe even write a book on my experiances and try to give help in it.