I am in such a casual mood about my whole situation. I tried to kill myself when i was younger, around 14. Now heres the part i get bullshited about. I took around 40 headache pills, as far as i can remember i took exactly 40, of all different types. I used coca-cola instead of drinking them with water. Is there a reason i didnt die? Anyway, right now i have finished education and did not go to uni. I am unemployed and bored and although i still speak to my friends i have little money and lately have got into a slump wher i dont go out at all. I am starting to realise that even if i had a job and money they would just be covering up the real problem, and i may just end it and find out whats on the other side. The main reason i dont right now, is because i realise how fucked it would be for my mother, as my father killed himself when i was young and to lose me as well would break her beautiful heart, and be tough for my brother. I need help asap, because the longer i head into this slump, the more deep and lonely i am getting.