my story (might be triggering..)

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by White_Darkness, Apr 6, 2010.

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  1. White_Darkness

    White_Darkness Well-Known Member

    the summer of 2008 was the worst time of my life so far, maybe ever. i tried to commit suicide three times.

    the first time, i <Mod Edit - Methods> in my apartment, turned on a beatles playlist and sat down on the kitchen. I fell asleep crying, I think. I woke up, turned off the music and <Mod Edit - Methods> . i just couldn't do it.

    the second and third times, i swallowed <Mod Edit - Methods> like to prescribe (okay, aside from the aspirin. i got that from walgreen's)
    i don't remember the first time i tried to OD (it was my second time overall tho). The second time, my boyfriend came out of nowhere (he must have been alarmed by the fact that i wasnt answering my cell. He made me throw up and I fell asleep (yes.. again) I don't know why he didn't call the paramedics; today, it seems weird but I think he was scared and paralyzed.

    I don't know how I feel today. I don't talk about my awful months. I'm scared though. Scared of hitting rock bottom again.
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  2. fojerbachas

    fojerbachas Active Member

    so sad, well its good that you have something near you-your boyfriend.
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