In high school, i started out pretty lite. Had minor surgery for gum issues, from an accident. Got Loratab for a month, 4-5x daily. Switched to Tramadol, to help after. Eventually i had a ready supply of them. Took 6 a day usually. Had a few experiences drinking. I rarely did it, but always binged out. Started mixing alcohol/tramadol for a bit. A friend introduced me to Cannabis. Within a month, i did it daily. Kept using it for over a year. Destroyed my closest friendship at the time. And what i wanted to be a relationship. Eventually i got a DUI for driving high. Still dealing with the after math. Started getting meds after. For a while i just used 2-3 Zolpidem every nite. Sometimes taking it hours before bed. Took Xanax to cope with mania/social anxiety at work. It was a short fling, but it was hard to stop. Stopped Tramadol for year in a half now. Had a few slips, but 1.5 years without regular use. Stopped abusing Zolpidem few months back. I occasionally have it, but only for really bad insomnia. Stopped using Xanax for few months. I usually use clonopin if need be now. Looking at my self, i just love sedatives. I am very anxious. But i hate living for more pills.