I'm from India.I am the kind of guy who didn't have a social life, never went to parties, lost his job, malicious rumors(which were true actually) were spread about me 3 years back at college. I live in a small town like place where everyone knows each other and there is lot of rumor mongering and behind the back talking. These rumors made their way into my town as some people from my college were from the same town as me. Somehow eventually I accepted that I had social phobia. I stopped going out, stopped talking to anyone and deleted everyone from my yahoo messenger. I can only talk to people online. I managed to get my college degree[with above average/good grades] which was a herculean task but lost my job because I ran into these people who tormented me back in college.I'm six foot 3 inches tall so I was never bullied physically, but I was bullied mentally. Even guys half my size would bring me down to my knees with their vicious grins.I'm very weak emotionally. So I decided to move away from this country and go to USA for my post graduate education. I got relatives over there who promise me that I will get a job in software over there after my masters. I took this decision 3 months back because it's impossible to live here.I would be going next year. But to my utter dismay, I learn that many of my college mates including the ones who harassed me are also going over there and some of them have already completed or have just started their masters program. And also there are many people from my town already settled in USA. I know that chances of me running into these people is pretty low but still I'm very apprehensive about future. I keep thinking what would happen if I run into people from college that made my life unbearable. They would again start spreading things about me over there and I would never have peace. When I read about coloumbine shootings and the virginia shootings, i started having all these bad flashbacks from the past. I could relate to it. But I also realize the pain they caused and that it was wrong. If everything fails for me, then I guess only alternative is to either be placed in a mental institution. Can you believe that ? I've a GPA of well over 3.5, why do I deserve this.I'm just too stressed and I can't take this anymore. I haven't even moved out of my house for last 3 years and I can't even gather the courage to go to my college and collect my degree.Sick of living in this narrow minded pathetic indian society.