Life story: I've been lazing around my house playing video games basically my entire life. I was never popular in school, made fun of in fact (who would've guessed :tongue: I've long forgotten about that, though). I'm very anti-social, not shy or afraid to speak, just don't have anything to say to anybody. I have enough friends, although, they're all male. I don't seem to be able to relate to the females much, so I can't really do anything with them, 20 year old virgin :sad:. I started smoking pot at the age of 14, dropped out of school at 17, for about 3 years I sat around my house, playing video games, good times with weed/alchy/friends, got my first job at the age of 19 (just about 20 too, wow LATE LATE LATE!) I've been working there (Wendy's, EEK! hmy for about 11 months now. And here we are. So far, what I've gathered is that life is completely meaningless. None of us really know what we're doing here, a lot of people seem to think that they do know, however, which I find to be very sad, they don't see the truth: Religion, Governments, Systems, etc all are irreperrably fucking up our world and I see absolutely no hope for "the human race". We just pointlessly carry on trying to entertain ourselves until death. The only thing that keeps me entertained in life is playing video games, smoking weed, and USED TO BE hanging out with friends, but I don't really talk much anymore because I barely see any reason to. I basically just speak when spoken to, speak when I NEED TO like at work, or when I have a comment or sarcastic joke. People... people are so stupid, so god damn stupid its unbelievable. Logic, reason, have you guys heard of this, wtf? WTF?! WTF?!?!?!? It's seriously MIND BOGGLING. Everyone I talk to just seems stupid, everyone at work thinks I'm a weirdo cause I give them funny looks all the time. They say stupid ass shit to me and expect a stupid ass answer back. People seem to just mindlessly joke around to pass the time. I have ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION, ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION, ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION to do anything because I don't seem to care about anything anymore (except my friends and family of course). Everyone seems to think that possessions, goals, and achievements are so important, but in such a fucked up world, it just doesn't seem worth it to me. Every day is the same for me, I go to work, come home, smoke and play on the computer. All people seem to repeat patterns like this as well, although they also set goals/changes along the way, which I definitely don't seem to be doing. That's where the ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION thing comes into play. I don't see ANY reason, ANY reason at all to do anything. Because there isn't one. We're like this microscopic piece in the fabric of the universe, a chemical reaction of the elements that spawned "life", its a race to adapt and keep surviving, we've got that down so well that we have so much free time, so we need to entertain ourselves. Being self-aware has plagued me with the question "Why?", I ask it to just about everything. I feel like I've asked it too many times, so now I see things in such a way that I am basically just an observer and I can't really have fun with life because I see how pointless it is. It seems that everyone's low IQ may be the reason for their happiness, "Ignorance is bliss." Thoughts?