So on April 21st 2008 I took <mod edit: no details please>.I had it all planned out, I had the note ready but then one of my friends found the note before I wanted anyone to find it.She made me go to hospital which was a pretty scary experience. I think a part of me still wanted to live a little, as I was a bit scared and I went to hospital like she wanted me to. My blood pressure and heart beat nearly doubled, my temperature went up loads, i lost my appetite, i couldnt drink properly or go to the toilet for a few days, I got abdomen pains, My vision went blurry and I felt like I was going to be sick.I almost passed out but the hospital staff stopped me. It was one of the worst experiences ever and I have damaged my liver and kidneys from it. The sad thing is, the longing for death has never gone away and I'm afraid one day I might act upon that.